A music can reflect someone identity and the feeling of pride. It smooths people mind or either it just come in so easily. Repeating a certain songs can be rather an addiction but it keeps people moving on or either it got people stuck. Listening to music at a different timing could reflect the mood. I chose to listen slow music in the night, it gives you a very undying feeling. Reflects yourself through the music of what you should do and what’s not.
When you decided that this is a good song or this is my favourite song of all. You start to find who’s the artist, where can i get the music and you just loop the music whole day or worst, whole week. You just wouldn’t want to get away from the music because the first moment when you start to play the song, you got caught. You know this song was amazing as you thought it may be. The quality of it reflect so much of the feeling though you just can’t understand the language but you just understand how the singer is singing because she pour all her emotion and experience to it and you just felt it like you never felt it before for a long time. You drop everything down because you just want to sit on a chair, looking out of the window and stare in space. You want to be in your own world, you just don’t want anyone to disturb you or even touches you. All you want was your favourite music to carry you around. TS:제시카 – 그대라는 한 사람
I was putting together some data on SNSD’s sales so far in 2013 since we passed the half-year mark a while ago, but I realised that some fans might not understand the true meaning of the data in terms of what it really means for SNSD. So I’ve ended up with a chunk of text about SNSD’s 2013 performance thus far, how it compares to their previous years, as well as some background info on how the Korean entertainment industry works. This might be a boring read for some of you…sorry!
I get it how people always say they can’t control themselves and here i’m experiencing it almost everyday. When you can’t control yourself you just happen to say those hurtful words and then u regret it later. And people always say don’t regret what you say because you will never know what happens next. I always regret whenever i said those hurtful words and i just can’t help it. It just happens. And when i regret, silence enter. I became quiet so quiet that i don’t feel like talking till i decide to sleep. I keep it to myself, i just don’t want people to know what i’m thinking, what i should do, all the whys. It happens all the time, sometimes too often it scares me. Am i too boiled up or i’m just this aggressive. Sometimes people get too habit with the words i spit out. To those who hear it for the first time would probably walk away or curse me back. I can’t control my feelings and emotions, is true that not many people can do so.
Are things too coincidental or is just fated like this? We’re always this close but never close enough. I know she can count on me, sadly to know that i’ve got many things i’ve still not known yet. Before holiday end, we’re gonna met and whether we or should i say i will be awkward I can’t say that early yet. If i could make you happy, even to the part where we can’t be together then i’ll do to the end. We talk quite a lot these few days. Happy to know that we’re actually talking like before. Are we more than a friend? because i just can’t seem to find out. Probably counselling should need to come in, i never understand loving someone. How much do u have to do to settle your heart for someone? Does surprising helps? Being there for someone and not loving her as much as she does do well? Always too many question occupied this tiny brain.
What happen if the bullies won’t stop?
Was reading an article that happened in Korea. The bullies won’t stop, the victim won’t speak, the teachers won’t involve. What a world is this. Just because of a certain mistakes and a little bad records, the bullies got 12 gangs to beat him up because he step onto his clothes accidentally. I don’t understand. I believe getting yourself involves it means getting yourself in trouble, that’s how it usually goes you know. The bullies won’t stop, even how much trouble you put them into whether is it a punishment or a letter of expel. They get you back, worst. That’s how the world evolves. I heard from some elderly, they always say been a bad person is better than a good ones. Why? Because the good ones usually end up dying first. Or either way you look at a positive side, god let the bad ones say on earth just to let them suffer. And some people may thinks that letting the bad ones suffer can be a suffocation to the good ones here. Is how you look at this whole thing. If you think looking this way may be right, go for it. There’s no right or wrong, is how you see things.
‘Are you eating well’ I always wonder, what are you up doing. ‘Are you doing good’ even which i know sometimes it get rocky and you may feel that you’re not doing good at all. ‘In which, do you need someone to listen to’ I can listen but i’m not good in words, i’ll say wrong word but that is the thing i could at least make you smile if my words are crumbled. ‘I’m always here’ i still look out for you, your name come in easily as i scroll down. You know i’ll be there for you when you come to me and not anyone. I still think, probably me or we could make this better. ‘Are we ready for another chance’ it start to become sensitive. I remember how you became my inspiration without me knowing what i should do. I could do was to ask for something that lead me to a slight spark, at least. I want things between us to not go too far and yet not least. I want grow things with you. I have plenty of things i want to do with you. Making you happy may be a little not my kind. I dont like crying but yet i cried the most. I never let my pride down or by letting people know that i’m weak. I hold it up. I want to do so when i’m with you.
I began to think that maybe she fallen for her. It never come to a point where things were so close. She never love someone this much especially when they had together the whole time. Basically everything. Hands were touched, eyes were not contact but at some point of times, small smile were exchanged, gaps in between were slightly closed up but never too near for accidence. She showed off her fashion to me, looking up and down. She was sexy. Pillow fights i remembered was countless of touches. I was hesitant at first but youth got into me, i just let it all out. Running up and down, she was always getting to me. I’ve tried getting a distance away but she kept coming for me. I was happy you know. She never get tired. Too old for games, i try to close my eyes for breath.
The start to the end but ending was silence because they were tired. The journey on the cab was long but long enough to feel her presence beside her. Both looking out of the cab and resting. Palms were on the seats, with one move both hands might be touching. i could extend my hands to give her the assurance but the confidence is not hitting in. I had the last eye contact with her before she walk out of the cab she left, nothing… nothing comes out from her mouth. What if one sentence ruined the whole friendship because of one selfish mistakes. i can’t afford to lose her. She is not everything to me but she is something to me. Her voice still tingle in my mind, her smile get me drowsy, her lips are touchable. She never get her and never reveal this any sooner. She love her, it stinks but this is best for everyone. If only she would swing the way she swing, things would be easier for her
It pop me when i was reading an article on a 3 brothers who kidnapped 3 girls for 11 years and sexually abused them. With a full read out, the elder brother did everything without letting the other brothers know what he did. And then i have the cravings of watching crime scene drama, so with that i remember that i have not watch Season 8 of Criminal minds yet. Three episodes marathon the whole night, it was a good drama. How one could felt so inferior over things and never really understand that hurting innocent people could do anything good to them. All they want was letting them know what is hurting actually like. One mistakes could lead to a whole new turnover. Believing that we love each other no matter what or we won’t get into such situation. But you never know what is lying in front of you or in between your lives. A serial killer get you silenced to your death. That is why people usually say watch what you say.
“One of the deep secrets of life is that all that is really worth doing is what we do for others” -Lewis Carroll