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Month: September, 2013

Uncertain feelings

And yes i’m feeling that uncertain feelings that i shouldn’t have. Could it be the music i heard too much, they were too deep that it causes my mind to make a change. Or could it be the text she sent in causes a change. There were too many things occupy my mind that it causes confusion. I make up mind that it wasn’t you that i want but from time to time i get that feeling that i may somehow need you in some way or another. I don’t get myself thinking about you. It hasn’t really develop into feelings yet, is something indescribable. I can’t really say it in words and what i don’t say could actually cause an irritation to both sides. When people grow older you get wiser or mature. I seen myself sometimes in it that i speak in a different way or think. But still i can never express the feelings that is kept inside. Is one way or another, you came back texting me and saying you just want to talk to me. I accept that as we haven’t been talking awhile. You misses me with no reasons behind, you felt happy that i’m talking to you just like this. Which make me wonder, maybe your feelings hasn’t really subside. You’re trying to dig further but playing games with me is not working. I want to get to the point.

Not in a full mind

I don’t know what i want to type here but i just want to, wants. Is not needed. I just need to see words going and maybe, probably i will know what to type when it goes by. A part of me is selfish and another part of me is cravings. When someone say she misses you, what do u usually replied? That is where i became selfish, half of me wants to know if this is the truth and the half of me don’t want to know. If the truth is been said, she would probably would asked then do u miss me? how do i even answer that whereby i don’t even know if i actually misses her. This is difficult, everything that concerns about love is difficult. I never understand what is love. People tells me that you have to read it carefully before you fully understand what is love then u can fall for someone. But how do i even learn the meaning of love? I can’t be consistent with a particular person and it stinks.